DISORIENTED

February 23, 2008 by His Kingdom Herald.

I can remember a time in my late 30’s when I would look in a mirror and wonder who that was staring back at me. It was one of those seasons in my life where God was re-arranging so many things on so many levels, and at such a fast pace. . .

It all started with a dream:

I was seated at a table with a white cloth. Before me was spread an elaborate place setting for a very formal dinner.

The most surprising thing of all was that none of the dishes were in their proper place. A beautiful crystal goblet was laying on its side. . . the plate was upside down. . .the silverware was scattered about.

In my mind I began to criticize the person who had so carelessly set the table. In an instant I sensed the Lord leaning over my right shoulder, and I knew immediately that I was the one who was responsible for setting the table.

My face blushed in shame and tears welled up in my eyes as I hurriedly attempted to straighten out the mess I had made. Suddenly I realized that I had no idea how this table should look. My mind was a total blank and I began to weep uncontrollably.

The Lord began to comfort and reassure me with the tender love of a father and the gentle patience of a teacher.

I watched as His strong right arm silently swept all of the silverware, delicate crystal and china off to one side without chipping anything. As He did this, I sensed that He was sweeping His arm across my life and clearing away all of my projects, activities, desires, concerns and responsibilities. (I also knew that He would be the one to “re-set” my table; and that I was to keep my hands folded in my lap, listen and learn!)

He began to replace each piece while patiently explaining why the plate and the goblet must be placed upright, and why I should resist that urge to grab the napkin from the pile. “No, not yet. . .you won’t be needing that until the food arrives. It’s not ready yet.”

Later I came across this scripture - “Normally the master sits at the table and is served by his servants. But not here, for I am your servant.” (Luke 22:27 NLT)

I’m finding myself in a similar situation as of late. So much of what has been familiar, comfortable, stable and predictable in my life has been swept away recently.

I’ve found myself grieving for what used to be but no longer is . And yet in those dark moments (thankfully they’ve only been moments) I force myself to lift my head above the wave that threatens to sweep over me and declare that my King is still on His throne.

Then in the flash of a moment, my King is there. He draws me onto His lap, wraps me in His warm embrace and begins to whisper all of His promises in my ear once again. . .

You are seated with me in heavenly places. (Ephesian 2:4-7 NIV)

I will never leave you nor forsake you. (Joshua 1:5 NIV)

In all things, I work for the good of those who love Me, who have been called according to My purpose. (Romans 8:28 NIV)

I am your Shepherd, you shall not want. (Psalm 23:1 NIV)

And some people wonder why I love Him so much. . .

Posted in Uncategorized | No Comments »